I have never been with a long relationship, when I say relationship the common scenario of having a so called girlfriend or boyfriend. Except for my best/boyfriends I have never been attached with a guy for more than 3 months. Yes, my longest official relationship lasted for 3 months and that was 5 years ago. But since I was so into friendships I have witnessed different kind of dealings between a boy and a girl… meron ding between boy and a boy… wla pa naman between girl and a girl. HEHEHE!
Recently I have been sadden with another struck of reality. Irony of relationships dismays me.
Characters: Ano and Ana
Status: long term relationship
Ano is a classic bolero. Parang wlang masamang buto sa katawan ika nga. Ano is a too good to be true kind of person. You can’t help but doubt, totoo pa kaya sinasabi netoh? Ana is bored with what they have and she continues to expose herself with possibility of having other relationship with other guy. Oh my…!
Characters: Tangerks and Tangorks
Tangerks a girl who is so experimental gave chance having an affair with Tangorks a certified bad ass. Tangerks always think of getting out of the relationship realizing that in the end it would hurt her. Tangorks continues to flirts and always makes Tangerks realize that there’s nothing wrong with it. Stupid woman! Hahaha!
Characters: Koya and Ati
Status: married.
Koya is so irresponsible, he only give 1500 a month to his wife as a financial support. Koya is a typical feeling binata, mabisyo; he drinks, smokes and into gambling too. They got married because of Ati’ s unintended pregnancy . Ati is now jobless and just depends on the support of her siblings in raising her son. When we last talked, she still wants to save the marriage for her son. How sad?
Characters: Mr. and Ms.
Status: long term relationship
Mr. is a Classic bolero as well. According to him he loves Ms. but he cheats on her. When I talked to Ms. who is by the way 5’9 and has a beautiful body, she doesn’t have any idea that Mr. is not faithful to her. She seems so in love with Mr. She said that Mr. is so sweet, always wants to be with her and so kind. Mr. even cooks for her, wash dishes, helps her family in the farm. My gosh girl, kung alam mo lang kung gaano kababaero ang jowaers mo. Hahahah! Sweetness can be deceiving huh?
I don’t know… I hate infidelity. I’m trying to rationalize things but unfaithful people sucks big time. But who am I to judge, I’m not perfect, I’m prone to cheat as well. But that’s how I feel. Today I went home during my lunch; lie down in my bed for hour thinking about how to eradicate this annoying feeling I have. I remembered the time when my mother had a mid age crisis, she reconnected with her ex. I was so stressed; I cried very night because I really hate what she was doing. I had written a poison letter for my mom expressing my grief. Kung mababasa niya lang yun baka bumaha ng luha sa sobrang sakit ng mga salitang ginamit ko sa kanya. Anyway I did not give it to her; thank God I still have my head during that time. Eventually her romance with his ex fades away like a fart.
Contentment is very hard to find, there will always be something missing with what we have in all aspects of our lives. If one is not contented and one does things to be fulfilled in any means that one chose to, good or bad would that be wrong? But who will determine what is right or wrong? Is it the society, is it the church, or our innate conscience. Morality is stipulated by man, man is not perfect, and morality suggests no perfect rule. Freedom and responsibility is the key. Know no limits, push yourself towards authenticity and be conscientious! Whatever happens it is “ I” who is held responsible!
"We bear the whole burden of responsibility for our choices, whether trivial or momentous and whatever conditions under which they are made."
