Crazy it seems that I have been very paranoid what others think about me these past few days? Do I look like a pathetic fat loser to them? My, my, my, what have I done to myself? I dont want to look like one but sometimes I feel that way... so this saying is indeed right "you are what you feel you are" This issue is an eternal recurrence ...... It will eat me over and over again. I thought I love myself too much to feel this way... Hello pride come back to me. I want to feel good about myself again....... I still insist that I dont care about what they say..... I am what I am and I'm still on the process of struggling towards authentic existence. If I will be a slave of "others opinion" I'm still part of the herd..... Nietzsche may come to rescue me.. I want to be alone and be crazy for a day so I have an excuse to do whatever I want... This sadness is killing me.. Please let me die..
